- Katie: “You’re going to hurt yourself again.”
- Me: “No, I’m not. I’m going to do things differently this time.”
- Katie: “You say that every time.”
- Me: “Yeah, but this time will be different.”
- Katie: “You say that every time too.”
I went back to the gym one month ago, and this past Wednesday I hurt my lower back so badly I could barely make it out of the gym. If the pain hadn’t subsided some by the evening I would’ve had to cancel the first night of our home fellowship. By the time I work up Thursday morning I couldn’t get out of bed, which is where I spent the whole day (and most of Friday). Katie was wonderful as you’d imagine, taking great care of me and – most graciously – not reminding me of how right she was and how wrong I was. I joked with her throughout the day saying things like:
- “Why didn’t you tell me you thought I’d hurt myself again?”
- “If you would’ve warned me this wouldn’t have happened.”
- “I’m only in this situation because it’s so important to you to have a husband that works out” (something Katie couldn’t care less about).
The truth is I was feeling sorry for myself on Thursday. I had four messages to prepare/review this week, and trying to study and type on my back was difficult. While I wouldn’t compare my “trial” to the trials others have gone through or are going through, there were still some lessons I tried to learn, because I believe the Bible is clear that every trial is meant to be a time of learning:
- First, it happened to be September 11th. What right did I really have to complain about anything compared to what some people were going through as they remembered the past?
- Second, good health – including the lack of pain and just being able to get out of bed, move around and wrestle with my boys is a blessing I take for granted. Ricky and Johnny try to “fight” with me every day and I felt like the elderly person in Ecclesiastes 12:5 afraid of everything whenever they came near me.
- Third, Psalm 90:12 says, “Teach us to number our days, that we may gain a heart of wisdom.” There’s wisdom associated with valuing our days and when you experience what feels like a completely wasted day, it makes you thankful for days you can be productive and spend your time profitably.